Tuesday, September 8, 2015

(A bit late but better than never:)And we're back....again....Parashas Ki Savo...Bring your best and be happy!

Try your best.

Do what you can.

A+ for effort.

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All we really have to do is try. Really all we have to do is want to try. And then everything else would work out. But most of the time we don't bother. Why don't we try? Why don't we even want to try? Maybe it's because we're afraid of change. Maybe it's because we're afraid to fail. Maybe it's because we're afraid to be vulnerable. And then we get into a rut. We feel bad. We feel empty. We feel regret. We feel unaccomplished. We for sure don't feel joy and happiness. Ah, but Rebbe Nachman said  "מצוה גדולה להיות בשמחה תמיד" We should always be joyful and happy! Ok maybe for Breslovers, but for the rest of us it's maybe not such a big mitzvah? Or is it? 

Most of our parasha discuss the blessing and curses, the latter numbering 98, in which we are scolded with the potentially most disastrous and deadliest words ever uttered. וּבָאוּ עָלֶיךָ כָּל הַקְּלָלוֹת הָאֵלֶּה וּרְדָפוּךָ וְהִשִּׂיגוּךָ עַד הִשָּׁמְדָךְ כִּי לֹא שָׁמַעְתָּ בְּקוֹל יְהֹוָה אֱלֹהֶיךָ לִשְׁמֹר מִצְו‍ֹתָיו וְחֻקֹּתָיו אֲשֶׁר צִוָּךְ
All these curses will befall you, pursuing you and overtaking you to destroy you because you did not obey the Lord, your God, to observe His commandments and statutes which He commanded you.
still, the actual trigger is spelled out two psukim later:
תַּחַת אֲשֶׁר לֹא עָבַדְתָּ אֶת יְהֹוָה אֱלֹהֶיךָ בְּשִׂמְחָה וּבְטוּב לֵבָב מֵרֹב כֹּל
because you did not serve the Lord, your God, with happiness and with gladness of heart, when [you had an] abundance of everything.

Wow! So simple! So clear! And it's not R' Nachman, it's theTorah itself! We need to start training ourselves to be more joyful and happy no matter what the circumstances are. That will solve all of our problems! 

Be grateful!

Be happy!

Be joyful!

Be thankful!

Imagine if tomorrow you will wake up with only that that you were thankful for today!

Then you can say you did your best and come to Hashems House and bring your Bikkurim!

Hang in......We're almost there!!! Just keep doing your best!



Friday, July 17, 2015

Parashas Mattos-Massei - The traveling, wandering Jew.......

Happy Rosh Chodesh!

Or is it?

Are we happy?

Should we be sad?

It's summer time!

But it's also the saddest time of the year on the Jewish Calendar!

Throughout the generations we have wandered from place to place, starting from when Adam and Chava got chucked from Gan Eden, till today. From place to place, tragedy to tragedy, some good years here and there, our own land for a while, but in the end only to continue to wander.....on and on until the final Geula and the coming of Moshiach!

But not to worry.

Not everything is black and white.

What's bad may really be good!

Sadness can lead to the happiest happiness!

These saddest times will very soon be turned into the happiest times of the Jewish calendar!

All in the blink of an eye...

All we need is Emunah! Pure and simple faith in Hashem and all of His ways!

Here are some good words I got from my friend Steve Schlissel -[Let me know if you would like to receive his weekly parasha sheet] - that can maybe make us understand somewhat why we have to take these journeys.

"אֵלֶּה מַסְעֵי בְנֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל"  מכפר על  "אֵלֶּה אֱלֹהֶיךָ יִשְׂרָאֵל"
Rebbe Nachman teaches (based on the Medrash) that the main reason why Bnei Yisroel had -and still have to travel- is due to idol worship. And even though they might not have actually worshiped idols (nor do we today), as brought by the Baal Shem Tov, any deficiency in faith, is already as if idolatry was committed (From Kriyas Shema - וסרתם  just turn away, and it's as if  ועבדתם אלהים אחרים) 

When our emunah is then repaired by passing tests of faith that are more prevalent when we are on the road, we erase the anger in heaven (כל זמן שיש עבודה זרה, יש חרון אף) and then Hashem has pity on us and treats us compassionately. But the main compassion-רחמים we want, is for Hashem to give over the רחמים to us, in our hands, to dole out to ourselves. Because in Hashem's eyes, it could well be that what we need is to be ח"ו sick or poor or persecuted to fix ourselves up. But who wants that kind of mercy? Whereas if we are in charge, we will ask for the mercy to manifest itself in our being healthy, wealthy and at peace.

So here Rav Nasan asks the million dollar question. If/Since Hashem knows what's best for us, what great feat will we have achieved, if through our prayers/actions we bring health to the sick or wealth to the poor, if that's not what we/they need? This is such a powerful question, since it speaks to our reason for ever davening to change any negative status  

Rav Nasan answers that there are two levels of mercy. At level 1 - regular rachamim, yes, we at times need to suffer various hardships to fix our situation. However there exists a level 2 - rachamim gedolim or rachamim rabim, where from there it is possible to effect the same tikun we need without having to suffer at all. One way of understanding thus is take people who get big money and then misuse it. Or have perfect health and then abuse their bodies. Or have good personal relationships and then take advantage of others. So for them Hashem it's 'kind' to hold back shefa. 

Since nothing is impossible for Hashem, we need to appeal to his greater capacity for kindness, so that we can be handle granting ourselves the simple straightforward meaning of kindness.

As Rebbe Nachman brings, this is hinted top in the following possuk, when Yaakov Avinu blesses his sons as they were about to embark on their second trip to Egypt, with Binyamin in tow, to get more food and bring back Shimon, whom Yosef had imprisoned     
אֵ-ל  שַׁ-דַּ-י  יִתֵּן לָכֶם רַחֲמִים לִפְנֵי הָאִישׁ וְשִׁלַּח לָכֶם אֶת אֲחִיכֶם אַחֵר וְאֶת בִּנְיָמִין וַאֲנִי כַּאֲשֶׁר שָׁכֹלְתִּי שָׁכָלְתִּי.
May Hashem give you mercy before the man, and he will release to you your other brother and Binyamin, and as for me I am bereaved, I am bereaved
Why give you? Meaning give over to you, so that even if you possible deserve harsh treatment, may you be zoche to achieve your necessary tikkun/goal without hardship (I'm stumped to think of a more fitting example, but maybe we can understand this as Rebbe Nachman taught us how two people can be headed for the same destination, but one can get there on a local train that has many stops and pifalls, whereas the second arrives at the same place unscathed by taking an express train....this was said regarding either going through self-inflicted pain and fasts to achieve a tikkun, as opposed to having pain-free hisbodidus and achieving the same end)

The Roshei Taivos אֵ-ל  שַׁ-דַּ-י  יִתֵּן לָכֶם רַחֲמִים of spell י ש ר א ל - because this is what every member of Bnei Yisroel can attain through perfecting their emuna via אֵלֶּה מַסְעֵי בְנֵי יִשְׂרָאֵל"

So as usual it all boils down to Emunah. Plain, simple faith! It's not easy, some times are easier than others. But if we continue to try, to strive, and to yearn to have Emunah, then Hashem will help us get it. And once we do our lives are off the bat much better. And once we do we will merit to be the ones who greet the Moshiach! Speedily! In our days! Amen!

Have a great Shabbos, Sorry that I can't be there!

Lot's of Love, 

Etan

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Parshas Pinchas


Inspired by Likutei Halachos Yorah Deah, Hilchos Bris Mila, Halacha 5 / Likutei Moharan Torah 65

Sometimes there are big events in life that require massive amounts of detailed planning; like your child's wedding, making Aliyah, or planning a 2-day trip up north on Chol Hamoed with 6 kids. And then there are those major life-altering incidents that are suddenly thrust upon you with no advance warning, where you're running almost purely on adrenalin and instinct and your brain has difficulty keeping pace with your actions; like the heroic sergeant who rushes to defend his troops from an enemy attack, the vigilant citizen who thwarts a bulldozer-driving terrorist, or the emergency-room medic who frantically copes with a ward full of traumatized earthquake victims.
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In this latter group, there is clearly no room for what we would normally factor in to our actions:
1. Am I being Politically Correct?
2. How will I be viewed by others?
3. Will I be safe?

Rebbe Nachman discusses the concept of how by sincerely performing a דבר מבוהל/ vilder zach -Yiddish/ reckless act, a person can accomplish almost unbelievable feats and rise to extraordinary heights; like when King David took on the Goliath challenge and then "rocked his world".

Background: 

Phase 1: Rebbe Nachman teaches us in Torah 65, just as physiologically we need to squint in order to see objects that are at a distance, so too it is ingrained in human nature to squint or even shut our eyes totally when subjected to unbearable pain. Why? Because the only reason we feel any pain or suffering is due to our small-mindedness / short-sightedness. If we could "shut our eyes" to block out the present, expand our thinking and extend our vision to see the ultimate tachlis that exists at the end of time (a time when we will finally understand how everything that happens to us now is for our ultimate good), then we wouldn't feel any pain. This bitul-negating one's self is the key element in being able to draw a salvation into the present. 

Phase 2: A side-benefit of projecting oneself into "The Tachlis Zone" is that our souls dip into the the source-waters of Torah that are found there (סוף מעשה במחשבה תחלה). When we re-enter our current reality, we are still left with a residue of this Torah knowledge. Why do we need it? Because the suffering can reappear even more intensely than before; like a wounded adversary, who - feeling threatened - fights back even more ferociously.Often these attacks come via other people (the most potent of the Dark Side's agents) who will attempt to deride/discourage you. Since all suffering is ultimately "in your head", a person can win round 2 by comforting himself with new words of Torah that he brought back with him

Now let's tie this in to the Parsha - I contend that Pinchas fulfilled both of these eye-closings

Pinchas, the son of Elazar and grandson of Aharon HaKohain, was an enigma. Despite being born into such an illustrious family, for 38 years in the desert he was an "outsider", unable to work in the "family business", due to his (unfortunately) unique situation of already having being born after his father was anointed, which disqualified him from being classified and serving as a Kohain.

While Pinchas most certainly clung tightly to his priestly relatives - learning whatever he could soak up - he must have had an incredible and insatiable yearning to make his own mark and become a full-fledged active member of the clan

Almost 40 years pass and an incredible opportunity presents itself. Zimri, leader of the Tribe of Shimon commits a heinous crime of immorality with Kozbi princess of Moav, that was so bold and extreme, it practically "froze" Moshe Rabbenu and the Elders into inaction. Pinchas, the ever-close disciple, witnessed this disgraceful sin, respectfully verified his legal options and quickly took control of the situation. Disregarding personal safety, image", and "political correctness", stoked by his passion to defend Hashem's honor, he summarily killed Zimri and Kozbi and single-handedly, and rescued Bnei Yisroel from being decimated by a heavenly decree. That was the easy part. 

After killing Zimri & Kozbi - in an obviously miraculous way - Pinchas then had to contend with a much more dangerous adversary. Bnei Yisroel began talking behind his back (and to his face), taunting him and questioning the purity of his motives and the justification of his actions. Enduring their insults, not losing his temper and maintaining his faith, was the hard part and a bigger victory in Heaven's eyes. And was why Hashem then chose to openly come to his rescue and bestow His blessings upon  him.
(Closing eyes part 2)

[Kabala Note- The Zohar Hakadosh says, זעירין אינון דיכולין לאישתזבא - Few people are saved (against human enemies). When your מניעה- obstacle is your spouse, friend, neighbor etc. who try to prevent you from doing what you feel is right, it's very difficult to win. But hinted to in these words could be the key to success. זעירין אינון - You want to win? Make yourself small, מבטל yourself]

And what blessings did he get? The Kehuna, Shalom and something else. Why?

By his demonstrating total selflessness purely for the sake of Hashem, he personified the essence of the purpose and function of a kohain, whose main mission as intermediary is to make shalom between the Jews and their father in heaven (which by the way, he also did in "calming" down the anger of Hashem and getting Him to once again look favorably on His people) 

FREE CHOICE

In these following examples I want to bring out the point that true free-choice isn't just whether I choose to eat watermelon or cherries, or whether I choose to watch football or hockey - where no matter what I choose, the delta between what results from either choice is minimal. The ultimate exercise of my free choice is where after weighing my options and the possible consequences (even if this takes only a moment), I then freely choose a specific course of action, regardless of any perceived or actual, peer or other external pressure.

Bilam perverted his extraordinary once-in-a-Creation gift of prophecy by exercising his free will time and again, to go against Hashem's true wishes, despite repeatedly being shown heavenly hints - including an emotional debate with a "smart-ass" - to act differently. As a result he is THE all-time poster-boy of how NOT to use your free will. It cost him his life...and more.
 
Pinchas - had his eternal life turned around by accurately assessing the volatile situation he found himself in, and then simply ignoring all obstacles, putting his own self-preservation and reputation on the line and choosing a swift course of daring action that left an incredible and indelible mark on the pages of history, which included: 
* He was promoted to be a full-fledged kohen
* He was imbued with the souls of his uncles, Nadav and Avihu (who also had a burning passion to serve Hashem)
* He became an iconic kohen gadol, and merited having the majority of all kohanim gedolim come from his direct descendants
* He himself lived a very long life as Pinchas
* He morphed into Eliyahu HaNavi later in his life, and as such never died

Besides for his "street credit" taking a sharp upturn thanks to Hashem vouching for the justification and sincerity of his actions, he was also given the "covenant of peace"
הנני נותן לו בריתי שלום / There are plenty of standard explanations on those words. Here's a possibly less standard view.

THE symbol of the covenant we have with Hashem is the Torah. Just as Pinchas displayed his readiness to be present at a time when his presence was needed and just as Eliyahu is present at every bris to testify to the purity of each Jewish child, so too just about every Aron Kodesh in the world - that has more than one sefer Torah - has a sefer that is positioned to Parshat Pinchas. Why? Because our parsha is the most oft-read-from parsha in the entire Torah. Being THE symbol of peace-שלום which is represented by the closeness brought about by our sacrifices to Hashem on the Holidays, this parsha lists all the Holidays and their musaf sacrifices.

How often is it read? (11 Roshei Chodesh - 6 two-day + 5 one-day = 17 + Rosh Hashana = 2 + Yom Kippur =1 + Sukkot = 8 + Pessch = 7 + Shavuos = 1 == 36)
הנני נותן לו בריתי - I gave him/לו (is gematriya 36) בריתי-my Torah - 36 extra (musaf/additional) times to be read in my Torah
And that was my gift of Shalom/Peace/שלום ...שלום is  שָׁם ל"ו

The "extra" bonus of davka 36 is especially fitting, since 36 is twice חי = 18 = life, standing for the extra life Pinchas granted Bnei Yisroel by stopping the plague 

Bnos Tzlafchad
As Big Splash as these two Free Will choices were - from these two diversely different personalities - they were made by Big people, who might be expected to pull off Big things. Contrast this to the case of the five single* middle-aged** daughters of Tzlafchad.

*Chazal point out that despite a (normal) woman's innate desire to get married and raise a family, these 5 righteous women refused to just marry for the sake of marriage. They genuinely were waiting for Mr. Right-eous. As such they were blessed that when they did marry, even though normally a woman who hasn't had relations by the time she's 40, will never conceive, Hashem blessed them with ample children.

**The youngest was 40

The process of how Eretz Yisroel was to be divided up among those entering the land was taught to the people. Everybody would get a fair share and the whole proceeding would be determined by an impartial lottery. A win-win situation. Except... the family of Tzlafchad from the tribe of Menashe were all girls. And that seemed to preclude them from the generally understood "Men's Club" rules of inheritance. Their passionate love for Eretz Yisroel and desire to own a piece of it, would not let them go down without a  fight. So they brought their " תנה לנו אחוזה/ give us a portion" claim up through the court system, until they reached the Supreme Court and it's Chief Justice, Moshe Rabbenu - who heaven made forget the ruling - in order to give greater honor to these righteous women, who then received a direct ruling from Hashem Himself.

Now close your eyes and imagine the gumption it must have took for these 5 fatherless & brotherless "ordinary" sisters to appear before the venerable 119-year-old Moshe Rabbenu and plead their case. While they certainly had purest of intentions and acted with the highest respect, the track record of others who came out and went one-on-one against Moshe Rabbenu was pretty disastrous. In the entire Torah, look at the score of all those individuals who "faced off" against Moshe: Datan and Aviram. Korach, 10 of the Spies, Zimri. That's 0 for 14. [These 14 also THEY were in the right] And again while these women were "only" asking for a legal ruling, when dealing with THE tzadik, how fine a line is there between propriety and insolence. 

They correctly exercised their free will and the glorious results proved which side of the track they were on. New laws regarding inheritance were presented in the Torah in their merit and they had their names mentioned individually a few times - here and and parshas Masei - with heaps of praise lavished on them throughout the entire commentary spectrum.

In all these cases, the impact of these "free choices" is magnified considerably, if one considers what history would have looked like had these individuals simply chosen to act differently or not to act all

May we be able to focus on what's really important for Hashem's sake, exercise our Free Will appropriately and enjoy His eternal bounty 

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Fasting

Most important part of fast is the way you end it: say fore brakhah with care; eat with derekh eretz. Learn some After brakhah w/care

Friday, June 12, 2015

Parashas Shelach....A quicky but a goody...

Ok, rushing as usual so heres a quick little idea to think about over Shabbos.....

"Shlach lecha/Send to yourself"....

"When a person does not focus on the ultimate purpose of his life, what does he have to live for?" Abridged Likutey Mohoran 268

Send spies to yourself, look into yourself, ask other people to help you look into yourself, better yourself, find your purpose, your goal, your destination.

Thats it! Thats the lesson. Spend a little time every day doing this, then make a plan for the day of how your going to conquer the unknown land that is today! And then tomorrow do it all again from scratch....

Have a great Shabbos Mevorchim!!!!!


Thursday, June 4, 2015

Parashas Beha'aloscha - It's all about the noons!(׆)(׆)

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וַיְהִ֛י בִּנְסֹ֥עַ הָאָרֹ֖ן וַיֹּ֣אמֶר מֹשֶׁ֑ה קוּמָ֣ה ׀ יְהוָ֗ה וְיָפֻ֙צוּ֙ אֹֽיְבֶ֔יךָ וְיָנֻ֥סוּ מְשַׂנְאֶ֖יךָ מִפָּנֶֽיךָ׃(וּבְנֻחֹ֖ה יֹאמַ֑ר שׁוּבָ֣ה יְהוָ֔ה רִֽבְב֖וֹת אַלְפֵ֥י יִשְׂרָאֵֽל׃ (׆


This week we take from a sermon given by Rabbi Norman Lamm in 1966. You see, we take from all sides of the religious spectrum.

I have spoken several times In the last few weeks on what I consider is and should be the philosophy of modern Orthodoxy: a total commitment to the halachah while living in this world and participating in it fully — culturally, economically, and politically.

We spoke critically, even if warmly and lovingly, of a new tendency noticeable in orthodoxy in recent years to recoil, to - recede from the larger community and ignore all those whose interests do not coincide with ours. Our thesis, is that this withdrawal from the world, this refusal to confront contemporary life, is not a viable philosophy for orthodox Judaism in our times. I believe that this is a theme that needs constant reiteration, continuous consideration, and deep reflection.

Today, however, I wish to emphasize the other side of the coin: the caution that we must exercise never to lose ourselves in the world, not to be overly impressed with the great culture in which we live.

This point is made with consummate skill in a comment by the Kabballstic Midrash Ha-ne'elam on a famous passage in today's parasha which we will all recognize from our siddurim: "va-yehi be'neso'a ha-aron, and it was when the ark set out", that Moses offered up a brief prayer, asking God to rise (or: reveal Himself), and that His enemies scatter before Him. Those who paid careful attention to the Torah reading this morning will have noticed that this brief passage of two verses is surrounded, on either side, by a special mark — the inverted Hebrew letter nun. These two nunin hafukhin, Inverted nuns, are part of our Masoretic tradition. What do these strange symbols, which appear nowhere else in the Torah mean?

The author of Midrash Ha-ne'elam spares no words In describing their enormous significance. They are, we are told, "kevodo shel ha-Kadosh baruch hu mammash, vhem ikkaro shel olam. the very glory of God, and the foundation of the world." It is because of this that Yackov blessed his children with them; for one of Yackov's chief blessings for his grandchildren was "ve'yldgu la-rov, let them be plentiful." The word yidgu Is derived from the Hebrew dag, for fish. Another word In Hebrew and Aramaic for fish Is nun. Thus the Targum reads, for the blessing we just mentioned "u~khe'nunei yamma yisgun-—» let them be as plentiful as the fish of the sea"

Furthermore, this midrash continues, the Almighty excluded Idol worshipers from the fraternity of these two nunin, and that is why the pagans always bear enmity towards Israel. But finally, "u-v'elu nunin atid Ha-Kadosh baruch hu li'ferok lehu le'ylsrael al yedei Mashiach — the Almighty will redeem Israel and bring the Mashiach by virtue of these two nunim, the Inverted Hebrew letters nun."

Thus, in sacred extravagance, holy hyperbole, and marvelous mystery, the Rabbis offer us not a mere play on words to delight our literary sense, but exciting spiritual insights that go to the heart of our problem,

For what they mean is that the letter nun means fish, and therefore the inverted letters, the nunin hafuchin, symbolize fish that are willing to swim upstream, against the tide, against the currents and tendencies of their surroundings. It is this remarkable quality which characterizes the true Jew and distinguishes him from the pagan. The authentic Jew must be able to dissent, to keep apart, to be unpopular, if necessary, to oppose the tide, to swim upstream. A man who cannot swim upstream cannot affirm his own independent judgement against the mob. He neither respects himself nor loves himself, and one who does not love himself, cannot love others. And our Torah commanded us: "love thy neighbor as thyself," not "hate thy neighbor as thyself,"

The upstream tradition of Judaism means that we must dare to be different. It means that when religious observance is frowned upon, we must frown right back add follow the dictates of our conscience and the teachings of the halachah, It means that when religion is popular but for the wrong reasons — such as social and aesthetic reasons — we must not hesitate to say so openly and urge people to practice their religion for the proper motives.

When others, for instance, consider it good style to indulge in uninhibited and unrestrained lavishness, whether in the pagan ornateness of the funeral, or the vulgar exhibitionism of the gala Bar-Mitzvah, we must not fear to affirm our upstream mentality; to assert the delicacy of Judaism's democratic traditions, and its insistence upon simplicity and the emphasis upon the spiritual and the religious.

Whenever we find society in violation of the sacred ideals of Judaism, we must become the nunin hafuchin, those who are willing to go upstream and not downstream. We must do so even if we are excoriated, even if the pagans bear us enmity because of it.

The upstream tradition of Judaism also means to dare to be alone. The very heavy emphasis of the midrash on the theological significance of the nunin — that they represent the very glory of God and the foundation of the world — shows that true religious distinction comes not when it is easy to be religious but when one's loyalty is tested in the crucible of heroism. That is why profound religious thinkers add philosophers from Professor Whitehead to Rabbi Soloveitchik speak so often and so broodingly of loneliness as a major component of religious thought and experience. To be different, to go against the tide, often leaves man with a feeling of aloneness; but that is what makes man worthy and life worthwhile.

Concerning the nunin hafuchin, Rashi declares that these simanim, these special symbols, come to show that she'ein zeh mekomo, this is not the proper place for the passage va-yehl bl'neso'a ha-aron. " Indeed so any place is rarely the right place for the Ark and the Torah! How beautifully Rashl hits upon an eternal and tragic theme: the unfortunate quality of being out-of-place that so often characterizes truth and dignity. As a people of Torah, we have been declared exiles and foreigners, she ein zeh mekomo, In almost every land on this globe, Jews who today remain loyal to Torah and the message of vayehi bl'neso'a ha-aron, often have that feeling — add they are correct. — that they can never find their proper makom even in normal Jewish society today!

The Ark cannot abide the moral ambiguities, the ethical ambivalence, and the complacent rationalizations of people who ignore Torah and yet lay claim to decency and rightness. To follow the upstream tradition of Judaism means to accept beforehand the great risk of discovering, at every point of your life, she'eln zeh mekomo -- that you have failed to strike roots in any specific historical society, that you have no real makom In the world of compromising men and rationalized ideals.

To be different and unpopular and risk loneliness is often extremely difficult and painful. Hence, the quite normal desire for assimilation by the minority to the majority, the desire to emulate the non-Jew and adopt whatever is not particularly Jewish. This tendency is reflected in an anecdote which is part of the bitter-sweet folklore of our people, which often possesses more wisdom than many a philosophy book.

It is told of a maskil, an enlightened non-believer, that he received the honor of reciting the blessing over the Torah, he performed this act with great devotion, concentrating with obvious piety and sincerity upon the words asher bahar banu, thanking God who has chosen us from all other people to give us the Torah. When he was asked by the congregants why he, a non-believer, demonstrated so much piety in reciting this blessing, he answered in explanation that he very genuinely meant what he said. "Now that God has given the Torah and the commandments to Jews, I feel that I need not observe them; had He given them to the gentiles, I would have been impelled by the desire to emulate everything non-Jewish to accept upon myself the terrific burden of studying Torah and observing the mitzvot.

This, indeed, is the downstream tendency so typical of many Jews who may not admit to it openly: flowing gently with the tides of the times into the cisterns of assimilation and the backwaters of oblivion. But the way of Torah is different it is the way of differentness. There was a gentile prophet who said of us that we are "am le'vada yishkon. a nation that dwells apart and by itself."  What Balaam meant was Jewish originality, spiritual uniqueness and validity. The upstream tendency of Judaism means that a Jewish home must be different from other homes; that the Jewish synagogue must — in its structure, its worship, its ritual,— be unlike other houses or worship ;that Jewish education must be different from the usual; that Jewish tzedakah must not be the normal kind of charity; that a Jewish university must be more than just a good ordinary university; and that Israel must be more than just another political entity.

This is what the midrash meant when it said that God would bring the Mashiach by virtue of the inverted nunin: that the Jewish vision of redemption is that we, finally, will be true to ourselves, that every nation will be itself and every individual himself or herself.

The differentness of the State of Israel does not mean that it can have no diplomatic relations, no foreign aid, no exchange students. It does mean that, involved with the world, it nonetheless must not surrender its own soul and abandon its own uniqueness. This, then, is the meaning for us of the inverted letters. We must never swallow western civilization whole. We must always stand a bit aside. We must never forget that it was western civilization that produced that obscene execration called Auschwitz — and it was the philosopher Santayana who warned us that he who forgets history is doomed to relive it. The nation that gave us Auschwitz was the most advanced in the world -- scientifically, technologically, and culturally too. Only recently I read that one of the leaders of the Gestapo, Heydrich, of accursed ,memory, used to gather his friends to his home twice a week for a M gemutliche Abende" of Bach, Mozart and other priceless musical compositions. When he became governor-general of Czechoslovakia, he set for himself two priorities above all others: to liquidate every Jewish man, woman, and child in his territory; and to rebuild the Prague Opera House as a center for music lovers of all Europe.

Now this does not mean that music and culture, science and engineering, are treif . It does net mean that we can or should resign from western civilization. It does mean that we must keep somewhat aloof, that we must adopt a critical stance and not embrace it blindly. It means we must exercise dissent and criticism, intelligence and judgment. It means that we must confront all of modern culture, but not necessarily capitulate to it; we must face all the facts of - rejecting all that is morally abominable, never succumbing to that which affronts our conscience as Jews and as humans.

It means that va-yehi bi'neso'a ha-aron, the march of Judaism and Israel through history must often be characterized by nunln hafukhln, by going upstream, by opposing the tides of the times. This afternoon we shall read In the Pirkei Avos the famous mishnah: "ezohi ha-derekh ha-yesharah she'yavor lo ha-adam, which is a right way that a man should choose for himself? — Kol she'hi tiferet 1'oseha ve'tiferet lo min ha-adam, whatever is fitting and proper for the one who does it, and fitting to him from the man"

That last idiom is usually taken to mean: that his actions are regarded appropriate and proper by society. But more careful study of the idiom reveals an entirely opposite meaning. What the Rabbis meant was that the right way for a man in life is not only one that is fitting for him generally, but that is also fitting for him min ha-adam, from the man, It must accord with his own inner self, it must issue from the deepest recesses of his own spirit and conscience. The right way is one that is not dictated by the taste and temperament of others, but by my own inner conscience; by my convictions, not those of my contemporaries; by my standards,not those of my society; by my faith, not that of my friends. This is the way we must choose for ourselves. It is the way of va-yehi bi'neso'a ha-aron, the way of the Ark of the Law in its perminations through the wilderness of time: whether it is with the tides or against them, upstream or downstream, our way shall always be: ha-derekh hayeshara - the right way.

Monday, June 1, 2015

I said we would continue so here we go.....May this be a merit for the neshama of my dear old friend Rami Behar A"H on his 20th yatrzeit

I had the zechus to speak at Rami's 20th yartzeit this past Shabbos at shalashudos at his brother R' Eli Behars home. I'll try to put down what I said as best as I could remember. One person said the only problem was that we weren't able to record it, to which I answered that on Shabbos and Yom tov, those are the real "movies", the real memories! 

I quoted the dvar Torah from R' Gamliel, that the Shabbos thats after a chag has the light and essence of the previous chag etc...(See the last post...)

We then connected our 2nd Shavuos to parashas Nasso with 2 lessons:

1: Parashas Nasso is the longest parasha in the entire Torah. In order to learn it truthfully on any meaningful level, we need to put in the time. It's long, there are lots of major concepts and points, and there are lots and lots of commentaries. So in order to really learn it, we have to put down the cliff notes and just buckle down and learn. Same thing with the Torah as a whole. Yes, baruch Hashem, we are blessed to live in a time where there are so many seforim, tapes, etc... which can help us learn. But we shouldn't be looking to these things as shortcuts! We can use them, but we still need to buckle down and plug away! Day in and day out! Torah is constant!

2: We all know the famous gemara in Shabbos 88: that says that Hashem held Har Sinai over klal Yisroel and told them that if they don't accept the Torah He would drop the mountain on them and crush them. The obvious question arises!?!?!?!? Didn't we just accept the Torah?!? Without even hearing it?!? Without any conditions?!? So why does Hashem have to "force" us to accept it again?!?!
Before answering that let's introduce a concept that we may have mentioned in the past, but even so it's worth repeating because it is such a basic principle. Life as a Jew is made up of a repeated 3 stage process: 

A: The light of inspiration.

B: The darkness after the light of inspiration has faded, where we must keep working on whatever it was we were inspired to do.  

C: The final stage, where after all of the hard work and persistance of the second stage, the original light of inspiration becomes inherently part of us. 

Hashem was teaching us by "forcing" us to accept the Torah, that Torah is not something that we can learn and follow only when we "feel it", only when we're inspired and into it. Torah is constant! We must learn and follow the Torah no matter where we are in the world, and no matter what our situation may be! We must commit our entire lives and entire beings to Torah! 

Another fundemental principle which we'll see in this coming weeks parasha, Behaloscha, is that Jews are meant to be like fish that swim upstream, against the tide!

Rami was someone who at the young age of 17 was already committed to the Torah. At a time when many others were just interested in having as good time, and who didnt know or understand what "learning" was. Gemara, Chumash, etc.. were just subjects in school that we needed to study for before finals. Rami knew what real "learning" was and he loved it, he tried getting his friends to love it as well. And we continue to see the results of that love with all of the Torah that has been, is being and will be learned in his merit and because of him. 

There was something else that I thought about afterwards but that fits in very well. It's a famous thing in chassidic thought that the only real way to truly accept the Torah is through simcha/joy!! Maybe that was why Rami was so attached to Torah, and why the Behars as a family have such a great chelek in Torah. They are happy, smiley, people. All of the images that I have in my mind of Rami are all with that smile/smirk, that was always on his face! Even if he was upset, he was still smiling!

May Rami's neshama continue moving up and up and up...May he be a melitz yashar for his family, his freinds, and for all klal Yisroel! 

May we be zoche to see the coming of Mashiach! Speedily! In our day! Amen! Then we'll be together with Rami and all of our other loved ones! 

Friday, May 29, 2015

Parashas Nasso Some thoughts from R' Gamliel Rabinowitz!

There is a famous saying from הרה''ק רבי דוד משה מטשורקוב זי''ע R' Dovid Moshe from Tschorkov z"ya, that the Shabbos after every chag still has the light and essence of that chag. In yiddish the Shabbos after a chag is called "שבת נוך יו״ט " the word נוך has 2 meanings; after and another. That fits in perfectly with what the holy rabbi said. So let's try and connect  Parashas Nasso with Shavuos.

This weeks parasha is the longest one in the Torah. There are many midrashim written on it, and the holy Zohar also writes at length on it. That is lesson #1, just like if you want to study this weeks parasha well and in depth, you have to spend a considerable amount of time learning; so to with the rest of the Torah, if you want to know it well, if you want it to penetrate your mind and your heart, you have to spend a considerable amount of time studying, and not just use the cliff notes.

Our next lesson comes from the gemara in Shabbos:)שבת פח.( על מאמר הכתוב )שמות יט, יז( ויתיצבו בתחתית ההר, אמר רב אבדימי בר חמא בר חסא: מלמד שכפה הקדוש ברוך הוא עליהם את ההר כגיגית, ואמר להם: אם אתם מקבלים התורה מוטב, ואם לאו שם תהא קבורתכם."And they stood at the bottom of the mountain (Exodus 19:17)-" Rabbi Avdimi the son of Chama the son of Chasa said,"This teaches that the Holy One, Blessed be He, held the mountain over them like a barrel and said, 'If you accept the Torah, it is good. And if not, here shall be your graves.'" 

Thats a bit strange?!?!?!? Klal Yisroel just said, "gnash v'nishma" Why does Hashem have to hold the mountain over their heads to force them to accept? Sometimes we get inspired, we take things on, we start new things, but do we stick to them? Even when the inspiration is gone? Thats lesson #2. The Torah is constant  ! Through thick and thin! Through the snakes and scorpions of the desert! And also through the good times! 

We'll continue after Shabbos! 



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Thursday, May 21, 2015

Parashas Bamidbar - Shavuos Zman Matan Toraseinu

This week we start reading a new book in the Torah, the fourth book in the Torah, Sefer Bamidbar, The book of Numbers, the book In the wilderness.


Hashem tell's Moshe Rabeinu to take a census of all the Israelite men from 20  years of age and above, "all those in Yisroel who are able to bear arms..."

Heads are named for all of the twelve tribes....Hashem tells Moshe not to include the tribe of Levi in the census, but to put them in charge of carrying, assembling, tending to, and guarding the Mishkan and its furnishings.

The tribes are then told specifically where each one should be in the encampment.

The Encampment of Klal Yisroel
North
AsherDanNaphtali
BenjaminMerariYissachar
WestEphraimGershonTHE MishkanKohanimYehudaEast
ManassehKohathZebulun
GadReuvenShimon
South












Hashem then instructed Moshe to place the Leviim in attendance upon Aharon to serve him and the other Kohanim.

Hashem then instructs Moshe to count all of the Leviim from one month and up, and they were divided into three groups; Gershon, Kehas, and Merari. Each one of these groups was then given specific parts of the Mishkan to care for and carry when traveling.

The lessons for us to learn here which only really scratches the surface are the following which also tie in very well to Shavuos and each one of us accepting the Torah upon ourselves. 

We are all but a number in the greater Klal, but yet we are all individuals and one person cannot do what the other person is supposed to do etc. 
We are all grains of sand in the great desert of life, but we all have our places and our jobs. And if we unite and get together, we become all powerful and unstoppable.

 How significant can one grain of sand be? How much power can it wield? Maybe not a lot, but if they band together they can be a formidable force. So too, though each Jew IS significant, when united and bound together, they are an unstoppable force.
* While they might look alike on the surface, each Jew is a unique entity as is each letter in the Torah (because each letter is uniquely positioned next to other letters)

So learning to accept the Torah and live in the wilderess of life, means learning how to conform but yet still be an individual. Learning how to be an individual but yet not dissconecting from the whole of the Klal.

How do we do this? We give in and accept upon ourselves the yoke of the Torah, each one of us at his or her own level. 

How do we know what our yoke is? By talking to Hashem in our own words, by trying to establish a personal relationship with Hashem in our own words, by asking Hashem to show us the way, by coming back day in and day out. By finding others who are going along a path similar to ours and sharing our trials and triumphs so that we can all learn how to keep on growing, by finding people with more experience and knowledge than us who can help us along the way, by praying, and studying and praying and studying, and praying and studying. And by keeping it up day in and day out, even if we dont feel anything, even if we dont feel like we're moving ahead. By remembering that accepting the yoke of the Torah doesn't mean we're quitting our day jobs and "learning" all day but that we're at least committing, be it even for 2 minutes a day. And of course, the biggest lesson for Shavuos and accepting the Torah upon ourselves, is to do it with b"Simcha, with joy! Hashem had been waiting with anticipation for an "eternity" until this shidduch could be made between his most precious gift and his beloved children. The happiness that was realized on that day when we finally were worthy of receiving this present was unrivaled in all of history and formed the basis for our everlasting infatuation with the Torah....May it never end  

So enjoy the Chag, enjoy the cheescake ( "Insights Into Halacha: Of Bullseyes and the Korban Cheesecake". ) and enjoy knowing that we are now starting from scratch on the road to a better tomorrow each and every day!!!!

Friday, May 15, 2015

Let's wrap it up for this week....

We discussed yesterday how in order to connect our "world of action" to the higher spiritual planes that exist, and therefore live a life of meaning by feeling the truth of each and every mitzvah, we must work and plow the words of Torah. 

Rabbi Fierstein continues: Every Jew possesses his or her own individual portion of the Torah. When we devote our lives to the struggle of understanding its words we can clarify our share. Chazal teach us: הוּא הָיָה אוֹמֵר, אִם אֵין אֲנִי לִי, מִי לִי. וּכְשֶׁאֲנִי לְעַצְמִי, מָה אֲנִי. וְאִם לֹא עַכְשָׁיו, אֵימָתַי:He would say: If I am not for me, who will be for me? When I am for myself, what am I? If not now, when? 

The Chidushei Harim the grandfather of the Sfas Emes explains that if one does not bring his own portion of the Torah to the forefront, no one else can do it for him. Time, is also singular in nature; each hour contains a unique spiritual potential - "If not now, when". 

The third statement in this mishna, "If I am only for myself, what am I", teaches how important each individual's personal worship is to the Jewish people as a whole. The midrash we quoted the other day hints at this idea. Dovid Hamelech said "I turned my feet unto Your testimonies; my feet brought me to the beis knesses/house of assembly. The beis knesses is where ones personal avodah is brought to the klal. 

Mitzvos are rooted in spiritual worlds and contain many levels. By doing a mitzvah in this world one merits their deeper level in the worlds above. One mans individual actions cannot rise to those heights on their own; only by making himself part of the klal can he attain higher levels. 

The Torah concludes the blessings of Bechukosai with a promise. If we act as we should and walk in Hashem's statutes, the the Torah assures us: וָאוֹלֵ֥ךְ אֶתְכֶ֖ם קֽוֹמְמִיּֽוּת׃ and made you go upright.(Vayikra 26:13)

What is the meaning of upright? Mans exterior form is only a outer garment over the light of his living soul. This passuk hints to this with the word "komamiyus" which can also mean "two levels/komos". A Jew, the Torah, and the Creator are all intertwined. The Torah has its revealed aspect, as does the Creator, but their true natures are sublime and hidden. So must a Jew be, his external nature covering his deeper inner soul. He then is komamiyus/upright. 

The same applies to Klal Yisroel as a whole. The Torah says: וְרָדְפ֨וּ מִכֶּ֤ם חֲמִשָּׁה֙ מֵאָ֔ה וּמֵאָ֥ה מִכֶּ֖ם רְבָבָ֣ה יִרְדֹּ֑פוּ וְנָפְל֧וּ אֹיְבֵיכֶ֛ם לִפְנֵיכֶ֖ם לֶחָֽרֶב׃ And five of you shall chase a hundred, and a hundred of you shall chase ten thousand; and your enemies shall fall before you by the sword." (Vayikra 26:8)

Rashi points out that these numbers are not at all proportional. If five Jews chase a hundred enemies, then a hundred Jews should only be able to chase two thousand? He answers that the power of the Torah grows disproportionately; a large group learning is much more powerful than a small group. Even so, why does the Torah speak of a progression at all? Why doesn't the large group immediately chase after the enemy?

The explanation is that spiritual growth can only work progressively. The individual must work on small actions, one after the other. As he overcomes his minor tests he receives heavenly assistance to achieve higher levels and his overall way of life begins fitting with the Torah. As he walks in Hashem's chukim, he starts to understand their hidden reasons and tastes their spiritual delights. He connects to the second level, his sublime self that is hidden from the world. His feet bring him to the beis haknesses where his actions connect to the community. There we all join together to fight evil. Level after level we grow on spiritual size, five pursue a hundred, a hundred pursue ten thousand. All the brachos in the parasha progressively take effect until Klal Yisroel is one united, upright spiritual body, walking komamiyus. 


Have a great Shabbos everyone!!!! One more week till we get the Torah!!!!!!!

Thursday, May 14, 2015

And we continue...

Obliged to Think

The paths of life are not limited to major life-changing decisions. Every morning when Jew says Shema, he or she accepts the yoke of Heaven upon himself and expresses the desire to walk in Hashem's ways. This helps improve him; he learns to recognize the spiritual significance of his every action. In the words of King David, " ואשיבה רגלי אל עדותיך..."And I turned my feet to Your testimony...." 
The feet are the lowest part of a person, and his thoughts are the highest. Being constantly aware of the yoke of Heaven and scrutinizing every deed to be sure that it is appropriate, elevates our lowest levels and brings them higher, and therefore closer to Hashem.
This way of life includes additional benefits as well. Before "walking in Hashem's ways" all of the mitzvos seem like chukim, incomprehensible decrees that must be followed without though or question. But as a person incorporates them into his life, they take on meaning and he begins to feel the truth of each and every mitzvah. Appreciation and understanding is part of the reward of keeping the mitzvah, as Chazal say: "שמצוה גוררת מצוה...the reward for a mitzvah is another mitzvah".
Thinking out our actions is the first step of a process whose outcome is beyond our meager understanding. Man must suffice in knowing that he must keep the mitzvos and cleave to them. His avodas Hashem may take him in an unanticipated direction and he must learn to "go with the flow", and recalculate his path to follow the guiding hand of providence wherever it may lead him. 

At the begining of the parasha Rashi explains that walking in Hashem's ways means devoting ourselves to the struggle of learning Torah. The effects of that struggle influence the entire world. Chazal teach us: "They said in the name of Dvei Eliyahu - "Man should always be like an ox to the yoke, like a donkey to carry, and like an animal which plows in the valley and field. So should a man work and plow in the words of Torah every day continuously....." (Tana Dbei Eliyahu Zuta 1)

The Sfas Emes explains that our world is called the "world of action" and is connected to higher spiritual planes. Man is called a "walker" the spiritual elements of his sould traverse these planes. By performing mitzvos and doing chassadim/good deeds he ties this physical world to those higher planes of existence. This is only accomplished through devoting oneself to the Torah, which encompasses every detail of this world. Man is like an ox to the yoke when he accepts the yoke of heaven upon himself to live a life of amal haTorah. Then he becomes like a donkey to carry, bearing the weight of the entire world and elevating it as he grows.

Devotion to Torah brings a life force onto the entire creation. The Torah promises  וְנָתַתִּ֥י גִשְׁמֵיכֶ֖ם בְּעִתָּ֑ם then I will give your rains in their season, (Vayikra 26:4)The Hebrew word for rain - geshem, has a double meaning. Literally it refers to rain, nut it also encompasses everything physical. The entire material world is given to us in its proper time and place when we "walk in His ways" by working and plowing the words of the Torah.    

We'll finish it off tomorrow bli neder.....Till then......

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Parashas Bechukosai..."Walk in My chukim/statutes"......Follow in Hashem's ways....

To make up for missing last week, and for missing Pesach Sheiny (Hahahah..you can never miss it! Theres always more time!) I decided to try spreading it out throughout the week and cover whatever we can. I hope this works for you!

This week we take from the sefer Flow from the Source written by Rabbi Yehuda Fierstein (ylfier@gmail.com) which is based on the works of the Sfas Emes.

אִם־בְּחֻקֹּתַ֖י תֵּלֵ֑כוּ וְאֶת־מִצְוֺתַ֣י תִּשְׁמְר֔וּ וַעֲשִׂיתֶ֖ם אֹתָֽם׃
If you walk in My statutes, and keep My commandments, and do them;
Psukim copied from http://www.sefaria.org

Chukim are the mitzvos that have no logical reason and are subject to ridicule by the non-Jewish world (Rashi, Bamidbar 19:2). Parashas Bechukosai begins with he idea of "walking in the chukim" of Hashem. The commentators interpret this idea in various ways as always. The Midrash begins the parasha with a pasuk from Tehillim:

אם בחקותי תלכו - הדא הוא דכתיב (תהלים קיט) חשבתי דרכי ואשיבה רגלי אל עדותיך. אמר דוד: רבש"ע! בכל יום ויום הייתי מחשב ואומר: למקום פלוני ולבית דירה פלונית אני הולך והיו רגלי מביאות אותי לבתי כנסיות ולבתי מדרשות, הדא הוא דכתיב: ואשיבה רגלי אל עדותיך. ר' הונא, בשם ר' אחא אמר: חשבתי מתן שכרן של מצות והפסדן של עבירות, ואשיבה רגלי אל עדותיך. 
If you walk in My statutes..." This is what is written - "I considered my ways and I turned my feet to your testimonies...(Theism 119:59)." Dovid Hamelech said, "Master of the Universe! Everyday I would plan and say that I have to go to a certain particular place today, or to a particular dwelling. And my feet would bring me to a house of prayer or a house of learning. " This is what is meant by "And I turned my feet to Your testimony...."www.sefaria.org

A regular tzaddik can dwell within a closed world where his path in worship is predefined and clear, but not so with Dovid Hamelech. A king cannot allow himself the luxury of closing his palace and locking the doors. Everyday he is faced with a myriad of new and different situations. Every place, every thing contain a point of connection to Hashem. But if one views the world superficially, that connection gets hidden (not taken away).

Dovid Hamelech called the challenges that confronted him everyday "dwellings" because while every home seems different, uniquely suited to the personality  of those living within, the final goal of each one is the same.  To provide a fitting environment for Devine service to the people who live there. Dovid Hamelech had to visit many "dwellings" and unlock their doors in order to find the Torah way of life in every place and situation.

The Midrash says: ר' שמעון בר אבא בשם רבי חנינא: כל הדרכים בחזקת סכנה. 
All roads are reputed to be dangerous (Koheles Rabbah 3:3) Anyone who would like to add a translation can got to (http://www.sefaria.org/Kohelet_Rabbah.3.2.2?lang=he&layout=lines&sidebarLang=all) and sign up for free.

The minute one leaves his familiar surroundings he is engulfed by a world of temptation. A careful calculation must be made to discover how each task connects him to his spiritual goals. This is why man is called a "walker" (Zechariah 3:7); he is to travel through the paths of life and draw spiritual aspects out of every place and person toward himself. Dovid Hamelech began each day that way, carefully working out how to go about his daily schedule .

This is done by doing Hisbodidus!!!!!!!

More to come bli neder.